People will really disappoint you if you let them and we are all human so naturally, we expect a lot from the people that we let into our lives. After all, we deserve it! Don't we?
When we have expectations, we are letting our ego control us.
Yoga teaches us to let go of all expectations and to abandon your ego. We are all one spirit divine- the good, the bad, and the ugly. We must have compassion for ourselves and others because we all make mistakes and missteps. We all have our good moments and not so good moments.
The ego makes us sad, angry, and frustrated if we listen to it.
We focus on this same principle while practicing. Yoga imitates life and life imitates yoga.
This week I found that I was especially frustrated while attempting Tittibhasana (Firefly Pose) I kept falling on my bum. It seemed my core strength decided to take vacation and I found myself making tutting noises and sighing loudly and unnecessarily. Even the instructor noticed and made mention that we should be enjoying ourselves and having fun.
I stood outside of myself for a moment and noticed that it wasn't the pose I was frustrated with. It was so much more than that, but mostly the frustration I was feeling was the result of a bruised ego. The bruised ego came from disappointment and expectations that weren't met.
To translate: I really hoped to be with someone who felt she couldn't meet my expectations for her. The expectations were there because of a previously bruised ego.
Had I not been in such a state, would we have worked out? Maybe. If I had fewer expectations and cared a little less about ego and pride, would I feel this frustrated? Probably not.
I am dedicating my practice this week to letting go of ego and expectations and feeling compassion instead...for myself and others.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
Post Savasana Bliss
Wow! It's been a while!
Over the past couple weeks I started a new job at another Yoga Studio. It is a Yoga Advisor position, which essentially means sales and client services and very similar to what I was doing before. I should include that my base salary is twice as much which is immensely thrilling.
I suppose I've been waiting to settle a bit before I started blogging again and to be completely honest, I fell out of the consistency I gained while I was practicing at Pure.
My first class at Yogaworks was Sherman's Power Yoga class, which I had actually taken before at Pure. The only difference was I had been practicing 5 days a week the last time I took it. Coming into Sherman's class after a two week hiatus wasn't impossible, but I could definitely feel a significant difference in my practice and my strength.
Since then, I've scaled back to taking level 1 and 2 classes as well as OPEN level classes. I'm working my way back to where I was when I left Pure and it feels amazing.
The past couple of weeks have not been incredibly easy for me because I had to make a quick transition imposed upon me by the powers that no longer exist in my life, thank the Lord! At times I was sad, scared and angry, but I never lost sight of my long term goals and I lucked out on getting my current job pretty quickly.
In hindsight, it seems like everything that happened was exactly what was meant to happen. I'm not stressed everyday and worried. I feel confident that I'm doing a great job and my whole life has started to reflect that feeling.
Two months ago I dedicated my practice (each and every class I took) to leaving the outside world at the door and trying to let go of what was no longer serving me. Now I dedicate my practice to living and loving the "now." I focus on wishing peace and compassion to even the most detrimental characters and people in my past.
Anger no longer serves me. I find that when I lay down in corpse pose for savasana I'm no longer struggling to keep certain images out of my head. I am immersed in peaceful space and after class I feel blissful.
My goals have only been better directed and I feel a clarity I wasn't feeling prior to all of this upheaval. For instance, I am now working on a business plan for (what I consider to be) a brilliant idea. I won't divulge any details before I get it copyrighted, but I will say that it has never been done before and will be an incredible asset to the yoga industry.
Over the past couple weeks I started a new job at another Yoga Studio. It is a Yoga Advisor position, which essentially means sales and client services and very similar to what I was doing before. I should include that my base salary is twice as much which is immensely thrilling.
I suppose I've been waiting to settle a bit before I started blogging again and to be completely honest, I fell out of the consistency I gained while I was practicing at Pure.
My first class at Yogaworks was Sherman's Power Yoga class, which I had actually taken before at Pure. The only difference was I had been practicing 5 days a week the last time I took it. Coming into Sherman's class after a two week hiatus wasn't impossible, but I could definitely feel a significant difference in my practice and my strength.
Since then, I've scaled back to taking level 1 and 2 classes as well as OPEN level classes. I'm working my way back to where I was when I left Pure and it feels amazing.
The past couple of weeks have not been incredibly easy for me because I had to make a quick transition imposed upon me by the powers that no longer exist in my life, thank the Lord! At times I was sad, scared and angry, but I never lost sight of my long term goals and I lucked out on getting my current job pretty quickly.
In hindsight, it seems like everything that happened was exactly what was meant to happen. I'm not stressed everyday and worried. I feel confident that I'm doing a great job and my whole life has started to reflect that feeling.
Two months ago I dedicated my practice (each and every class I took) to leaving the outside world at the door and trying to let go of what was no longer serving me. Now I dedicate my practice to living and loving the "now." I focus on wishing peace and compassion to even the most detrimental characters and people in my past.
Anger no longer serves me. I find that when I lay down in corpse pose for savasana I'm no longer struggling to keep certain images out of my head. I am immersed in peaceful space and after class I feel blissful.
My goals have only been better directed and I feel a clarity I wasn't feeling prior to all of this upheaval. For instance, I am now working on a business plan for (what I consider to be) a brilliant idea. I won't divulge any details before I get it copyrighted, but I will say that it has never been done before and will be an incredible asset to the yoga industry.
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