Can't Nobody Hold Me Down...

Over the past week or so I have experienced a few minor setbacks. I lost my job at Pure due to a close personal relationship between my now former boss and my ex girlfriend. As anyone in my life can see, this was surely one of the hardest blows I’ve dealt with in a long time. As previously stated, I will be getting pretty personal in order to maintain the honesty and integrity of this blog.

Prior to this I mentioned having recently exited a two year relationship. After a war of words between the two of us, I figured it was all over and we could both be mature enough to stay out of each other’s lives. Apparently, I was wrong.

If this is still vague, it’s only because I don’t want to drudge up the minor details of this drama. It’s long and arduous.

I should just say that my performance was on par with the other two Yoga Advisors and I was only just beginning. I had admittedly been late a couple times and was told not to be late anymore at which point I made sure I was ten minutes early every day following. My alleged “ill performance” was never shared with me and never documented.

I have filed a complaint with the company’s HR department, but so far they have been slow on the uptake.

Of course all of this has affected my practice, unfortunately. I’m finding it extremely difficult to cultivate a large amount of inner peace right now, but I am going to continue on this journey.

I have three job interviews lined up for me already and I am feeling hopeful, even if that’s not the “yogic” way. Two of the three jobs are in the “Yoga Industry."

Two days ago, I bought a class package to a studio in Park Slope, Brooklyn which is where I live. The classes are only Vinyasa levels 1, 2, and 3, but it’s better than nothing. I also have a free week pass to YogaWorks that I intend on taking advantage of!

My practice has slowed down, but it hasn’t stopped and this journey is not coming to an end because it has really just begun.

Even though this has been one of the most challenging times in my life and I feel burned and just sad, I found that I have handled all of this differently than I would have in my past. I don’t know if that’s all because of yoga, but I am proud of myself for not curling up into a ball and for not acting defeated, because I’m not. I still have a long way to go, but something has changed within me for the better.